I totally understand how you feel. A year and a half ago I moved from CA (where I had been practically my whole life) back to Michigan to be with my family. It was depression that caused this move. I have been way to big a burden on my parents emotionally. They are totally supportive and there for me but it is too much for them and I noticed it. I have friends but they don't understand from personal experience and get sick of hearing the same old sob story from me.

I am a big believer in having a support network outside of our families and ordinary friends. A big part of that is professional help. A pdoc and a T. And others who go through the same things we do. This site is awesome for that. Local groups. Group therapy. I find the more open I am the more people I find that also suffer. I believe if we are open and willing the universe tends to put people in our lives who we need and who need us. So I am really working on rebuilding a support network here in Michigan outside of my family and ordinary friends. I have been a member of AA for many years so one obvious answer is to start going to meetings where I am now. Some crazy social anxiety has been keeping me from doing it. I need to just do it and you may have just inspired me to go to one tonight. Thanks. I have found that many many in AA also suffer from mental illness so for me it is a perfect place to find support. I am gonna take that first hard step tonight. Thanks again for your post.