I know how much energy and pure force of will it takes to commute and work everyday. For years all I did was commute work and sleep. It was all I was capable of. The older I got the harder it was to force myself to do things. I just got plain tired of staying in the fight. Do to the economy and lack of work partly, and I think the progression of my depression getting worse it became too much. I am back in the fight but I am not working now. I could be working if I felt I was capable. I am actually doing very good right now so the battle is not so hard. I am scared to be honest of what the future holds. I have accepted my depression and anxiety and there is peace and contentment in that but I do not know how I fit into this world anymore.