Raecka, definitely take some time to read many of the other topics on on the psychothrerapy forum. You will find that your feelings are completely normal, and that we are all basically going through the same dependency, in one way or another. I thought I was the only pathetic loser who felt that way about my T and feared termination, but then I joined here and realized there's many other pathetic losers out there besides myself. HAHAHAH, JK GUYS! You are all awesome and seriously, Raecka, it has been an amazing experience to join this forum and have the opportunity to validate my feelings, thoughts, and behaviors. Do join us!