Thanks Secret and sorry, probably shared too much above

Finally received a batch of catheters about an hour ago that I know are the right sort (the only one the had last night was inadequate and very fiddly to use) and it worked which was a relief. Had several panic attacks through out the day.. Worn out and exhausted.

They want me to eat (last meal was last night) but no appetite at all.

Feeling miserable, low and worthless.

Wife is coming in fifteen minutes and I've got an abundance of visible (albeit shallow) cuts and just going to be ashamed. Also don't want her to kick off at the staff. Meh, really crap day