Whatever you do, DO NOT quit your anti-psychotics without the knowledge and supervision of your prescriber. And don't isolate yourself in a cabin somewhere, far from help.

You cannot will this illness away. If that were possible, there would be no bipolar people because no one chooses to be this way. We do what we are able to do, we push our limits, and some of us even choose to embrace the illness. But we cannot make it go away just because we want it to.

Please get advice from your p-doc and/or therapist if you have one before undertaking withdrawal. And think of it this way: the difficulties that await you if you try discontinuing your APs may be far worse than any real or imagine health issues resulting from their use. Is it worth it to risk almost certain mania and/or psychosis? Is it worth it to risk the possibility that your meds won't work anymore if/when you go back on them? Only you can make this decision, but I think you are getting way ahead of yourself.

If you're determined to get off APs, at least get with your doctor and taper them gradually. This minimizes the risks and gives you an idea of whether or not you can live without them. Best of luck to you.