I've done some pretty bad stuff in the past. Things I've done on accident and things where I didn't even realize I was doing wrong. I regret it all there's one thing in particular I've done that I'd rather not say but what was done all my friends know. She brings it up almost every time I see her. I've said I'm sorry and she's forgiven me, but I haven't forgiven myself. I don't know how. I cry for ours and make myself sick because I feel like a terrible person. I'm afraid that one of my stupid mistakes will result in me taking someone else's life, and if I ever did that couldn't live with myself. My parents and my friends all know somethings up, but I refuse to tell anyone. Even people who don't know who I am, what I look like, and they are looking at this from a computer screen. I'm tired of feeling this way. It's exhausting, but I feel like I have no control over the way I'm feeling