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The sexual abuse that no one ever talks about... do they??
Is it because it doesn't exist OR is it simply so shameful that no one can ever talk about it - EVER?????

Sexual abuse by a husband ... on his wife.....

Is it rape, if it is your husband....

Is it rape, if you end up getting sitches? Does rape matter if it is done to a wife? After all, it is just a "wife". Isn't that how all wives are treated? If a wife says "NO", must mean "YES"... it's a "WIFE"

Is it rape, if your doctor doesn't ask, and "how did you get these injuries" BeCAUSE - guess what he really doesn't want to know.... does he?.... if he did know, he might have to do something other than stich you up Right?

Must NOT be rape, cause you are still sitting across from your ex-husband 19 years later, pretending that the physical and sexual abuse never happen - as you share an Easter dinner with your adult child - AFTER all it's just expected... ISN"T IT? all so very civil... RIGHT??

Definition of physical abuse, using a closed fist to hit your wife - of course back slapping, popping her ear drum by hitting her ear, leaving bruises on arms, choking til she passes out, locking her out of the house in her nightie, tearing the ligaments out of her scapula..... welllll we can't REALLY call that abuse CAN we???

And the names " worthless piece of ----", "not worth the air you breathe", "dirt that I walk on has more value than you" -
well that's just a hubby getting cranky... RIGHT???
Twelve years of marriage, isn't really a long time to keep a secret - that NO ONE knows, is it? No one guesses, no one notices, OR do they BUT it just isn't anything that is ever talked about.. RIGTH?

So this is the first Easter, I have no regrets about turning down a "family" dinner with my ex-husband...
It is also the first step in healing and saying "NO" to my ED... and to secrets....

The questions weren't really to be answered - THANK YOU
all for allowing me to finally, finally tell my "secret"....

With this comes the next step of healing.

Sincerely,
freewill