So I've been having a really good few weeks. This guy at work that I've had a crush on for years suddenly took notice in me. We like all of the same tv shows, movies and music. For weeks we have been texting all night every night. I asked him if he would want to go see a movie sometime, and he said yes. Naturally, I assumed he likes me. I've been talking to my friends and family about him. One coworker told be to be weary because he is chummy with a lot of girls. So, I started freaking out and got really depressed. So I talked to him- he's really easy to talk. I told him that since he tells me I'm amazing all of the time that I thought (stupidly) that he liked me, and he didn't really say anything. So I said I knew how ridiculous it was that he could like someone like me and he said I was being too hard on myself. For the first time in years i actually wanted life because of him, and overnight that is over. We are still friends, but I seriously started falling for this guy. My mom told me that I'm too depressed all of the time and why would he want to be near anyone like that. Now, I would give anything for my life to be over. I don't know how to deal. I don't want to deal. I just lost my best friend due to a fight, and he made all ok. What do I do now? The pain is so bad that running a push pin across my leg doesn't even work anymore. The thought of a few more days living like this is awful, but for another 60 years? I'm 23, he's the first guy to, I thought, show interest, and to find out I'm just an idiot is awful.

Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk