thank u so much for the support
i am so glad that everyone here is so kind
i really took your suggestion of therapy, or talking to someone to heart and i thought about my options, but there isnt anyone i can trust.i also know that couselors are required to tell your parents some things that you tell them (like SI) and one thing i dont want is for my parents to find out. i just would not be able to look at them knowing that they know what i have done and/or thought. is there any way i can see someone w/o my parents being contacted or involved? is there any other choice?