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Originally Posted by Useless Me
I think this is very common (myself included). But at some point you have to do a few things:
- Realize that you are simply wasting energy. You can not go back and undo things. They are as they are.
- Ask God for forgiveness (which he WANTS to give to you)
- And the hard one - forgive yourself.
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You are right; I am wasting energy by dwelling on the past. Depression does do that. F14ace made me feel like I have no right to feel the way I feel, and I guess that's why I feel so guilty and ashamed of myself.
I struggle with my faith in God, like a few Christians do. Believing in God isn't easy for me, but when I think of how this universe can exist at all, I wonder if there is a divine hand behind it all. I hope God will forgive me because I struggle to forgive others. Sometimes I wonder if forgiveness even exists at all. I haven't forgiven F14ace for thinking and saying those horrible things, and I haven't forgiven myself for verbally attacking him. This is something I need help on in the future. I feel like a wretch, undeserving of forgiveness or love by anybody.
How do you forgive yourself? If I struggle to forgive others the way I do, surely forgiving myself is nigh impossible.