making friends is so hard for me to do. I keep a wall up at all times. I'm so mistrustful and it causes me so much anxiety.
I find my moods get in the way so I don't bother much. I guess I'm protecting myself and others.

I've gotten so use to being alone now that it would feel awkward. I have my few friends that I've had for over 30 years that can put up with me and you all, but that about it.

The funny thing is, I'm very approachable, easy to talk to and when doing well a hell of a lot of fun. Such a shame that I can't share it.