It runs in my family...but i am not sure....my mother let me drink at home all the time...but i would only have one or two beers...and i am a lightweight....so that gets me a buzz....but what makes me wonder is i get so thirsty for beer...and it was really hard to get rid of it...i used to drink around two every night .....every night....and when there was an occasion where my mom would say no....id flip and get angry...boiling angry....so angry id slam a door...and even now.....i say boy im really thirsty for a beer....and on new years eve ...i had like 5 beers and a mixed drink....i was done by two and the mixed but i got home and just drank myself stupid...to the point my boyfriend was carrying me to the bathroom....and i still love alcohol..yes...i actually said that...its terrible...but i am trying desperatly to stay away from it but its sooooo difficult especially at parties and stuff...mind you my father is an alcoholic and my grandfather and my mother is one as well now....and i have other destructive addictive behaviors such as SI and ED.....maybe the ED is why i am such a lightwieght...also that i am only 5 foot.....hmmmmmmm..what do you guys think.....
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