I guess you care AK, I know it hurts, it hurts to care? But thats how it used to feel? I care that my T is on break. I felt it was a punishment to me, that she doesn't care about me because she wouldnt leave me if she did.

I know this is old tapes, she has to take care of her as well as me . By her doing what she also needs to do for her, she teaches me how to do what I need to do for me.

Someone once said to me that taking a break from anything is healhty, I thought she was crazy, then I was full of green envy that she could think "normally" like this.

The pain we feel at times like this, is there anyways, if we dont feel it and face now then it will seep out sideways everyday in other ways. Ive had enought of this pain, I want to face it, deal with it and move on. I want to be able just "miss" someone like normal people and not have it turn into a life or death situation.

If Therapy didnt make us feel uncomfortable then it wouldnt be worth it. Well thats my take on it.

OUr frustrations have to be dealt wiht evenutally, we have to go through them, and now with the aid of someone that really does care, our T's we can do this!