I can't say you are or are not an alcoholic thats for you to decide....my T and pdoc helped me me decide that I am surely am an alcoholic. Well, I knew I was an alcoholic--they helped me accept it and quit drinking. Sounds like you might have some of the warning signs. Try life without alcohol--see what happens--maybe things will be better. Its always good when you don't have to get carried to the bathroom or say stupid things at a party. My sobriety has made my life so much better! Less probelms with anger, anxiety and depression. Not to mention, I should not be drinking because of my psych meds--psych meds and alcohol don't play well together. Good luck...I hope you decide to not drink--life really is fun sober.