We are not all on the same path. You may go to school, have a job, etc. later if you want, we don't know what we may be doing in the future, we can only work with now toward what we think we want then. Right now you may want to find a therapist, work on some of your emotional problems? Can you take a course of study online if you are interested in school? I got a regular degree in college and then another one, online, 35 years later. Work to concentrate on what you would like to do rather than what other people are doing and you won't have time or interest in being jealous, it won't "make sense" to be.