I read some of your back story, and my heart goes out to you. You have been through a lot, and I am glad that you are staying the journey to heal. The bookForgive and Forget, by Lewis B. Smedes, was very helpful to my kiddo, and portions were helpful to me. My therapist read portions to me at a time I could not focus.

For me, I could not focus on forgiving the people that hurt me, but I was able to eventually let go of the hurt. So maybe, that translates into forgiveness. As I write this I feel nothing negative for those people, some that I have come to love. Best wishes to you.

The most creative power given to the human spirit is the power to heal the wounds of a past it cannot change. - L.B. Smedes