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Originally Posted by Ocean5
Thanks that all makes so much sense. Just trying to find a doctor/therapist would always make me so much worse that I'd stop looking... But I went to and choose one, knowing this was a real possibility because of family history. I was a wreck leading up to visit. Couldn't even work the days before it.
During first session I had unusual experiences. Example: at one point I remember looking at her directly and wondering why I had been looking down/away. Had no sense of how long I had been doing that! Yet I know before I was talking about my childhood (least I think.)
I get the sense an alter talked to her - maybe even identified itself.
What I'm wondering is if an alter revealed itself to therapist in first visit (evaluation) is that a good sign for treatment?
Just so you know point I'm at. I know I cannot keep living like this. Someone reentered my life that sends me into bad state when I feel that person is not safe. Getting help is no longer an option. This week I even told an older relative who's been providing emotional support through some ruff times this could be the diagnosis - yet it still scares me (guess that's normal.)
But thinking of my youth, and extreme category my therapist put it in, that is probably the only way a child could survive. And don't worry I'm not suicidal. I survived.
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Originally Posted by Ocean5
What I'm wondering is if an alter revealed itself to therapist in first visit (evaluation) is that a good sign for treatment?
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Im sorry no one here can answer that question for you, only your treatment provider can say whether dissociating/becoming an alter is a good thing or bad with in you.
with in me my own treatment providers believe it was not a good thing for two reasons.....
because in order for a person to dissociate to such an extreme as becoming an alter that person has to have under gone extreme trauma as a very young child (here where I live and work demographics/statistics show under the age of 5. a child being emotionally, physically and often sexually abused is never a good thing.
because in order for a DID person to become an alter they must experience being triggered (something happening that causes the person to feel extreme emotions about things they are unable to handle) so instead of facing their problems/dealing with their problems they dissociate/mentally run away from their problems. my own therapist explained it by comparing it to a physical problem... if you have diabetes is it the right thing /is it good to ignore the problem/not take care of the problem then what do you have? a person who ends up losing their eyesight, amputated body parts one by one, and more and more and more problems when its completely manageable with diet, exercise and sometimes medications and sometimes with weight control, diet and exercise the diabetes sometimes ends up being cured.
my continuing to ignore the problems in my life by mentally running away from them only results in more problems.
for me having alters take control was never a good thing. it affected my social life, my academic life, my health, ....theres so much that goes into being DID and how it affects a persons life.
with in me it was not a good thing to have DID, to have alters taking control every time I was sad, happy, angry,...
again only your own treatment providers can say whether you dissociating to the extreme of becoming an alter is good or bad for you.