Thanks Bizi, i have an appointment with my pdoc the end of this month, it's the earliest he can get me in. As for a therapist, because of our crappy insurance I can't afford to go to one right now so I am relying basically on this message board to learn how to deal with things because everyone seems to be going through the same sort of issues. I was told to keep track of my moods with a mood chart. I always start out strong then forget for a week or so. So that is a flop!!! As for the whole family thing, my mother in law has 12 brothers and sisters and none of them seem to get along, so she has me and my husband and my father in law. Thats it. My husband works 70 hrs per week so that leaves me to handle everything. and to be honest if I had someone to ask for help I am not sure I could. Life is crazy! Thanks for the reply!!