I experienced depression in 1991 or 1992. It was easier to get over that depressive episode than this one. Of course at that time I had two small children to raise so I knew I had to get myself together for them. Now the children are grown, my parents I was caring for passed away four years ago, so there are not people "needing" me in my life. I don't know if that But I wish for you the best. It sounds like you have a lot going on. Take care of yourself