Thank you for your kind words, you are so very sweet! No, itjustme, you are not alone in this, I am right there with you. In the past, I can not remember how I got through this if I did have a way. I am having to do this all on my own and I can not tell anyone or they will think I am doing it on purpose and I do not want them to think that, because I am not, I have made too many promises and I just do not want to do anything to break those promises (I don't make promises I can't keep). Getting through this is very hard and especially having to do it on my own is even harder. Things like this makes it scary to think that I might end up back in the hospital and I do not want that, I am just having a fall back is all and no one on my end (my family) will not be able to understand that, so it makes it very hard.
I hope you do get through it too. The thing is, it is very hard not to let these "eating disorder monsters" not to take over our lives, I have struggled too many times with letting them and not letting them and it is very hard. I am sure you and I both will get through this. I do know there is a stop to this roller coaster ride somewhere, we just have to find it...eventually. Thank you for your reply it really meant a lot to me. If you ever need to talk just know that I am here for you as well. Bye for now. Time to go and get my husband up and ready for work. Stitch (from Disney's Lilo and Stitch) will give you a BIG hug.

<font color=blue> Sending Kitten Hugs and Kitten Kisses to you,
Brandi Kathleen aka: Kitten "meow" </font color=blue>
<font color=purple>Cat Kisses
Sandpaper kisses on a cheek or a chin
That is the way for a day to begin!
Sandpaper kisses a cuddle and a purr
I have an alarm clock that is covered in fur.
Author Unknown </font color=purple>