Yesterday was good, today was bad, a whole week's progress wiped out. I'm not sure what happened, maybe not enough sleep last night, maybe just overtired by a lot of unaccustomed actvity, maybe the delayed effect of missing a dose of meds, maybe the improvement was just the placebo effect, maybe the meds have pooped already, maybe I'm being taunted and tormented with brief glimpses of "normal" life, maybe hormones, maybe a bit of everything. I'm so afraid, I don't want to go back to where I've been for so long.