Sweetie,
I know it is hard and you are tired of fighting, but you can not give up and let them have control over you. The only way I seem to have control is when I am thinking about what I am eating or haven't eaten. Probably should not have just said that, sorry! You can't give up fighting, you just can't. I know you are tired of fighting, but you can't give up. Don't give into it. I promise, it will get better, you just have to believe in yourself that you can get better and you will. You have to have a little bit of strength so you can get through this, you just can't give up. I know I am begging and pleading, but I know how it works, I have had it happen and I have watched my baby sister, who is 16, go through it too. You can't give up. I do not have children, but I can sempythize (sp) with the eating disorder thing and it is hard. PLEASE DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Sorry to have yelled, but you need to hear me and all the others in here on the forum. We believe in you and we want to help you through this, but you have to be willing to want the help. I am going to stop my babbling now and I am sorry to have yelled at you, but I meant it in a nice way. I do not want you to give up, I believe in you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayers. Maybe Stitch (from Disney's Lilo and Stitch) will cheer you up, he always does me. Bye for now.

<font color=blue> Sending Kitten Hugs and Kitten Kisses to you,
Brandi Kathleen aka: Kitten "meow" </font color=blue>
<font color=purple>Cat Kisses
Sandpaper kisses on a cheek or a chin
That is the way for a day to begin!
Sandpaper kisses a cuddle and a purr
I have an alarm clock that is covered in fur.
Author Unknown </font color=purple>