My mother does not know that I lost my virginity, it would only add up to my trauma.

My ex assumed I would tolerate any kind of treatment since I agreed to have my first time with him. It wasn't my intention to break up with him, but I think if I stay by his side, I will never receive any affection, and I will never experience pleasure during sex.

I have been having nightmares about my first time...

Thanks for your reply and your warm welcome!