This might be long, if it is, please continue to read still. This is interesting and I have put a lot of thought and honesty in this.

Here is me and my situation. Male/28 years old. I started smoking pot when I was 12 and I drank for my first time when I was 11. When I was in high school I was expelled from school and I was on probation when I was 16 for related issues. I got out patient help but thought it was a joke and just went through the motions. When I was 23 I gave up and I was ready to get clean. I went to rehab for nine months, I worked there for a very short period of time, I left, started a company and I was successful having a place to live, a brand new car, a work truck and a bmw and a year and a half clean... And a lot of guy stuff like tools and a big TV etc.. I drank/ relapsed on Valentines Day when I thought I could control my drinking when a woman asked me if I wanted to dine out with her. This resulted in a two year binge. I lost everything. My place to live, my cars, TV, EVERYTHING. I moved back in with my parents. Met this woman. This woman was very nice when I met her encouraging me and supporting me to quit drinking, smoking get clean, etc. She offered for me to live with her and now I have been living with her and contributing financially, giving everything I have basically. I basically give her all my money and I don't have anything. We have been in a relationship for two years, she got my name tattoo on her, she wants to get married, she has a house in Europe she wants to take me to, we never used a condom, we were serious about having kids. Now, something happened. In the last year, things got seriously ugly. She wen from supporting me and getting mad at me drinking to her becoming the alcoholic and stoner and she would drink a bottle of tequila a day minimum and I would help her. So the past year, I have been in this drunk, sex and alcohol and weed fueled life style. I caught her with two different guys, I was drinking more and more to cope with it. Finally I had enough. I went to rehab against my will. My parents basically tricked me and took me to this place really far and left me there for treatment. I ran to be with my g/f. I never drank since but she does like, she did today. And when she drinks she gets rude, calls me gay and goes out with other dudes and calls me when she is with them. I live with her.... I am really depressed about this. Her behvior is escalating. She got caught doing something Im not sure what because she is lying to me about that too, she went to court, they ordered her to do 3 weekends of community service/ weekend work program. She called me today and said she didnt go, there is a warrant out for her, she didnt show up because she was to drunk to go. I was so concerned for her because she said she was with other men, getting drunk and she is the only woman and she is far away and with a dude she said she cheated n me with... I went to her parents house and told her parents about her legal issues and said she needs serious help. Her parents reply to me was, "Move on. We did. There is no helping her. She is not truthful with us, she is lying to you and she is lying to herself. We know one day she will leave the house and get killed on the street or be in jail. That is just how her life is. We tried to help, we have a lot of money, a lot of family and we are very, very nice people and she isn't getting the help. You can't help her. How old are you? It is time to take care of your mind. This is bad. All the weed and drinking and I know, my daughter is bad and not a good person. She is crazy. Why are you with her? Why don't you break up with her and leave? You are nice and you don't deserve this. Break up with her. She says "*****" a lot, I don't even want to talk to her anymore. And we are her parents. I like you, it's nothing about you. She is sick. If you want to go out sometime, get some coffee, chill, that's fine. But, why don't you break with my daughter man? She lies, we don't even want her... We don't even know her, she lies, everything she says is a lie, she tells us one thing to us and another thing to you, she told us she is at the beach with you right now." She called me, right when they said that, and she said she was drunk out with guys and didn't go to her community service... They asked why I am with her and why don't I break up with her? My answer to them was "because I love her." The other reasons are, I know she is sick and I know I am the person that she is most comfortable around and knows her best and I don't want to give up on helping her... Anyways. Their response to me saying "because I love her" was "That is two different things. You love her, but her destroying everyone's lives is not good. you love her, but that is two different things from her destroying everyone's lives... and fighting and lying to everyone. Come on man. I don't care, of course I care she is my daughter but she will die young or get arrested there is nothing. we. can. do. And her mom was saying she is crazy the whole time. So then I went to the police station immediately after that and they said she did show up but she wasn't supposed to start working until next month so they sent her home.

So again, all of this is a big lie. My whole life is becoming this huge lie. My parents are distant and questionable about me because this whole life I'm getting involved in is engulfing my life in lies too.

I was walking last night and I was stopped by the cops because of something she did on her bike the other night and questioned me.

She lives in the same neighborhood as my family and same town as me.

I emailed her and broke up wit her her and blocked her calls and texts and emails and blocked the email after I wrote a similar message like thisaid I am done for good.

I am depressed now though.

Can I get feedback?

This is the same town I lived in for 28 years everyone knows everyone I want to get on a bus tomorrow and runaway far and just start a new life.