Life seems so simple for so many people; and so many people in my life (my family) tell me to just, "be more positive" and "just relax", along with many more. Simple tasks are difficult to even attempt to do. Taking care of my children, whom I love more than words can say, consumes my whole day, everyday, because I cannot figure out how to create time to do anything else. Feeling like a bouncy ball, having melt downs, feeling like giving up, crying all the time; I am 30 and feel 60. Life is tiresome and difficult to live. Loneliness on top of it, feeling isolated, even though I have a significant other and children around me everyday, they don't understand. I don't have any real friends. No one can ever fully understand anyone else in life, but as you all can relate, it's frustrating, lonely, and tiresome to attempt to explain that the way we are is out of our control. Trying news meds and still trying to find stability. Hugs to those feeling the same.