I am very very familiar with this particular strain of suicidality.

"causing the patient no longer to realize sanely the bonds which connect him with people and things about him."

The problem being that I am no longer sanely realizing the bonds that connect me to others. That, and I would add, the wonderful possibility for my future. My suicidal mind is very clever about trying to convince me that the reasons I have for being suicidal are very good -- no one cares, life is hopeless, it is a valid way to communicate a message, etc.

The evidence continues to stack up that good things will happen (even if by accident) and that I can figure out healthier ways of coping if I can just get through my suicidal periods.

I hope you are ok, Gen. I'm new here. So, hi.