When I saw this post, I immediately thought of Rapid cycling and mixed states as "Waves"

Without getting completely philosophical, I think it's important to define what depression looks like for you. That, and make a differentiation between mood, energy, thoughts, etc.

For instance, it is possible to be in a "manic stupor" or in an "agitated depression." And there are strains of depression. Ever discussed that with a clinician?

Take me for example. My chronic depression tends to manifest as dysthymia that looks like extreme cynicism when presented in my personality. My severe episodes, on the other hand, tend to be melancholic and suicidal. I can swing from anhedonic and crying to agitated and impulsive.

But look at Zinco. He says depression makes him numb.

What am I saying? It's complicated. Talk to a psychologist or psychiatrist. It is perfectly possible you are in a relatively normal phase and lacking some motivation right now. Normal people aren't always motivated.