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hey baby you are not selfish. you were being a teenager and that is what your grandmother would have wanted.

she is still with you, that is my belief, and would be heartbroken if she knew how you are hurting.
my grandad died when i was 16, he was my hero and the love of my life, the only person who ever cared about me. i wasn't allowed to the hospital to say goodbye, i know he forgives me and i know he's still with me so dont despair. you are not selfish at all.

love you, miss my grandad too more than anything. but i learned to live with the grief eventually, i still cry though about him and i'm 42 now.

love you, kerry xoxoxoxox