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Originally Posted by kaliope
yes, it definitely sounds like you are on the road to an eating disorder. I don't know why you think your t would reject the idea just because she is skinny and well put together seeming. I work in the mental health field and I can tell you, lots of ts don't have their life any more together than we do. im a social worker and im totally messed up but that doesn't make me a bad social worker. im really good at helping others. so just lay it out to t like you did in this post. there are healthier ways to go about losing weight without crossing the lines you are crossing or about to cross. you will probably be purging before to long. take care of yourself......  |
Thank you for responding.
I was able to get down a little of the sandwich while doing some homework. Not sure that I can even look at the rest of what's sitting here though. Not feeling too good about what I did get down unfortunately.
I have had a rocky road with this T after transitioning through two other T's. I'm not even sure she likes me. She tolerates me at best. At least that's how it feels. She told me last week she wants me to start doing every two weeks instead of weekly because "everything seems to be going ok". I'm a mess and she doesn't know because I don't know how to tell her without losing it. I have a hard enough time making it a week it feels like. I think I frustrate her because I don't talk to her. Not like really in depth. I can't decide if it's not working because we don't click, or because I'm not being vulnerable enough. I don't know.
I appreciate you using a personal example. I'm currently halfway through my master's program in clinical mental health counseling. So I can identify with you when you say that clinicians don't always have it together.
I'm feeling ridiculously lost right now. With everything. The only thing I feel like I do right is school and homework. Not much else.