So it's another Saturday night and it's another night home alone again because my anxiety got the best of me again. Right now I am having issues with my right wrist so it is making my anxiety worse. Some of my fiance's friends came and got him two of which I know for a fact don't like me. It was a guy and a girl they are a couple. Well they are going to play basketball and I choose not to go because whenever I am around his friend's girlfriend I always question my own short comings. I mean this woman is like super woman always keeps a very clean house and a few other things I lack at. I always opt out of things when I know they will be there. I just can't muster enough confidence in myself to do things with him when they are around. I try positive self talk and it works for a little bit but then my short comings compared to this girl start to come to light again and I always end up in the same uneasy akward place I was too start. I hate myself for having anxiety because whether my fiance says it or not I know he hates being with a girl who can't even go root for him when plays basketball because of one girl. I need help. I get all upset spending Saturday nights alone even though every week my fiance begs me to go but it's impossible for me to go when they go because of my anxiety please help anxiety has ruined my life.