Thanks Bumblebuzz.....
I'm older and have experienced life at it's worst. I survived the death of both my parents and that's what began my spiral downward. I now worry about what the future may bring, more death, illness and god knows what else.
I obsess about all the horrible things that can happen, that I can't enjoy my life now.
I continue to work on my thoughts, but imaging what could happen, scares the crap out of me.