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Originally Posted by Innerzone
Hey RB! Just saw this. You know, it does sound like a lot of things to change up all at once -- they're all worthy, but maybe all at once might be sending some kind of "overwhelm" signal to your subconscious(??) Totally a guess, but I find that when I just don't know what to do, and am irritable, frustrated and exhausted, it usually turns out I'm overwhelmed. Not saying that's all that's going on or anything, just that it's something that may well be.
On the meds, no worries, there's nothing weak about it. But you know this. It's good you have the meds coming. Pick them up, then you'll have them. Doesn't mean you need to take them. Not saying you shouldn't, just saying better to have them on hand undecided than to realize you need them and not have them, you know? With one of my meds, I have a big feeling of reassurance, just knowing it's there, whether I'm currently needing it or not.
 Good luck! And keep posting, ok? (I'll try to check in a bit more often, but currently, BF is (im)patiently waiting for me to help him with something, so gotta run! |
I always get into the habit of taking too many things on at once. I'll feel good and straight away decide to fix all my life problems at once, which ends up in me crashing and going the opposite way. That could obviously be cycling itself.
My meds have been picked up and I used my sleeping pills for the first time last night as my sleep habits have been going off course, which is making it difficult to get myself up and going and down to the gym.
The whole wanting to do something but not wanting to do it is difficult to explain. I'll feel fed up, so I'll think about going for a lie down and that'll frustrate me so I'll think about doing something productive instead and that'll also frustrate me. If I wake up in bed, I'll be annoyed and irritated by the idea of staying in bed but I'll also be annoyed about the idea of getting out of bed. So I end up just being annoyed all the time.
Haha, we both have impatient BFs. I had to wait until today to reply to your post because when I replied to the others last night, he was waiting to go to bed. I could feel the burn of his eyes impatiently fixated on me throughout the entire time I was replying to everyone else.
Be good to yourself IZ
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