Slightly traumatic phone call with the wife. I called for some reassurance as though things are calmer, I'm on edge and almost expecting a trigger to set me off. Called at a bad time as she was in tears and worried about the furry friend(s) we have in the house at the moment (rats). Spent 20 Minutes calming her down but feeling helpless as there is nothing I can physically do

She will be visiting at 3:30. Also told me that last night as she was leaving one of the nurses told her that though yes it is likely I'll be allowed absence to see my councillor... If I don't come back then I would be tracked down and forcibly returned which would be both traumatic and cause further complications.

Just wanted to cry (the thought had crossed my mind) but stayed strong and told her I understood.