Alot of people have interacted with you since this. I was genuinely surprised that you are only 12. And to be honest i dont know , how helpful this site will be to you. Serious mental illness throws up a lot of challenges and its effects and symptoms , can be hard to take, even , for a mature adult. You seem to have some insight , in that you say that you say you have special powers , etc , yet you choose to comment on a schizophrenia and psychosis forum.

I am in my late 30's and have struggled for 8-9 years with psychotic issues and there is not an inkling in my core that would suggest that psychosis is something more than biologically motivated. Ie there is absolutely no supernatural element to the condition.
I wish you success in your life , your a young guy( i presume?) , and there is plenty of time, to see all the good, this life , has to offer you.