Hi Folks-

I hope I'm putting this in the appropriate place. Something very wierd has been happening to me, and I was wondering if anyone else has experienced it or is experiencing it right now.

In the past several weeks I've had three impending depressions and one impending manic phase. But they never came to fruition. It took me about an hour to talk myself down each time and I was okay. It's almost as if I've gained control over the episodes.

Is this possible? Has it happened to anyone else?

I think there are several contributing factors. One is that I'm actively writing again and when I'm writing my whole world just seems to fall in place. Another is my age. I'm finally learning what's important in life and I don't want to waste anymore time. (I'm so tired of the drama!) And I don't think about suicide anymore. I've taken that out of my toolbox for good.

The last factor is that I've cut back on my medication (with the approval of my doc of course.) I still have to take the full dose of my PTSD meds because I'm not in charge when the dark dreams come.

The rest of the time I just feel normal and happy and mostly calm.

I know many people here are off meds after being on them for years. Was it like this for you? Did you just taper down until you felt normal? I don't know that I will ever be completely med free, but just cutting back has made such a difference. I would be very interested to know if this has happened to you.