i struggle with everyday life ever sense my ex left me for the 2nd time 'cuz i had no money.

i don't go out really, even with the couple of few friends i have. i won't go see the guy i'm talking to, 'cuz i'm afraid of him talking bad to me in front of his friends or being some joke to them 'cuz of stuff he's said about me or done behind my back. and i'm afraid of other girls. i'm afraid of him flirting with them or staring at them while blatantly ignoring me and then getting mad if i say something.

i hate when people find out where i live when i don't want them to.

and the sad part is, i can't even tell Raj (the guy i'm talking to) about all this, 'cuz i don't want to put all my problems on him - or anyone else really.