Thanks so much for your replies. Thank you Wysteria what you said makes a lot of sense - this is just the hardest thing I've ever tried to do and it seems insurmountable at times.

I'm super pleased with myself at the moment though because today for the very first time I successfully stopped myself from binging. I am so happy about this! The period of time when the cravings and anxiety hit was so so hard but I'm hoping it will get easier with time. Just taking things an hour at a time