Well, I'll just say that my name is J. I'm a mom of a toddler, with two (almost 3) jobs, planning a wedding, a move, with a fiance that works out of town for a week straight. I was just diagnosed with BPII a month ago but I've faced periods of depression and anxiety since I was probably 12. After I had my child, PPD wrecked havoc on my emotions and mind. Stress has eaten away at me the last few weeks trying to wait on this new medication to kick in. (Trileptal, Wellbutrin, and Trazadone for sleep.) This last week has been especially hard and I have no idea why. I try to explain to my fiance and he just simply doesnt understand. It doesn't help that I can't explain it that well to begin with. I feel isolated and alone and Im constantly apologizing to my son for being crazy. Thats why I joined this site. There is so much negativity assigned to mental illness that I feel like if I even say it, Im just trying to get attention. And thats not how it is at all. Like I said.. I feel very alone. I just want to find people who know what Im going through and just talk. Get it all out there. Im a very outgoing and social person with two careers that involve sales and talking to A LOT of people. I love my careers. But my motivation (or lack thereof) is causing me to lose my focus. And become quite antisocial. Anyways... thats me. Feeling stressed, helpless, unmotivated, and aggravated. And did I mention crying? Lots of crying. Thanks for letting me air it alllllllll out.