Guys first of all love you so much for your help and support. If it weren't for you I'd be totally lost in this bi-polar spectrum. Since pdoc's don't always take enough time to listen to us, sharing experiencings here on forum is very helpful.

THANK YOU once again from the bottom of my heart

Yes, you are all right. I mean of course my pdoc has a reason why she thinks it'll help. The thing is two pdoc's (mine and the one that'll check me up soon) were talking about adding Abilify, they were both quite unsure and thinking would this be good for me or not. The thing I didn't do was I didn't ask WHY I need Abilify. The reason for that is that we decided first I'll just increase Lamictal.

Now when my pdoc appointment is getting close, I will of course ask what she expect Abilify will to for me. I presume they want to stop my little hypomanic episodes I told them about. But since my last visit none of that kinnda feelings happend. I just feel less and less connected to the world, I mean I am more stable, but I am not experiencing any emotions.

Of course nobody really sees it. My family and BF only see I look better (physically), but my mind is....FLAT. That's why I asked if maybe, just maybe, Abilify will boost some emotional energy....cus if I didn't want to feel that much before, I am suffering now as well, not feeling anything. I went from one extreme to another. Sure, feeling too much is SOOO exhausting, but feeling nothing...well....where is the point in living then?

I use to love travels, now I have no desire for them. I am also scared I'll get anxiety on them. I used to love spend time with my BF, now I just simply don't care. Not to mention I have no desire for sex, since there are no feelings (from my side) towards my BF.

So as you can see, I am not in a good situation. I am more stable...maybe too much.

BIG HUG TO EVERYONE***