Sounds like you need hospital.

When I went through my divorce it sent me into a spiral of depression, followed by a mixed state, which I couldn't get myself out of. It lasted several months, and I just got worse and progressively more out of control. I ended up doing some really stupid and dangerous things, and landed involuntarily in the hospital for 3 weeks. I don't think that made me weak, I think I am vulnerable to stress and the stress of the break up pushed me to a point that I couldn't fix it on my own. I think if I had gone to the hospital sooner, like months sooner, it would have been a short stay and I would not have so many negative consequences from dangerous behavior.

So I don't think you are weak for feeling how you do after a break up. Maybe if you go in now it will just be a few days for you to feel better. The way it sounds now if that you are not safe, so I'm really worried.

Hang in there