i'm not self diagnosing based on this? I said in my op that I've experienced more typical depersonalization and derealization for as long as I can remember... I've also talked to a therapist about it and asked her not to document a formal diagnosis because I only like to have formal diagnoses when i need something from the system, and i don't want something here and she said ok, but it was mine when I wanted it.

my post here was to ask if anyone had experienced this as a kind of depersonalization. that was it.