My therapist asked me a couple of months ago could I go back to what I was doing, and I just froze solid it scared me so bad. Some of my mouth with verbal ranting about the economy and politics, I am grateful I never got arrested.

However, I was on a tight schedule as far as sleep patterns, eating patterns, and light exercise helped some.
I was having severe migraines and eating Goody powders like candy to try to prevent them.

I want to go back to work and will have to if I haven't wasted time trying to get placed on ssdi to hopefully get a handle on this. I know if I have go back to work, I will go back to the same person I don't won't to be again.

Get this. I got fairly depressed/mixed once at last job and my coworkers in my mind were out to get me, I took a sharpie and drew a hand shooting a bird and wrote fuc$ you backwards on my arm like a tatoo.