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Originally Posted by (JD)
 Only a few of us (Thank GOD) have had to consider, truly, those concerns.
You, however, seem to be having irrational fears. It might be better to try and work through the WHY you fear this T abandoning you, rather than work on a way to try and make sure you know if/when it should occur (which, really, is a never-ending, no closure endeavor imo.)
Maybe you are using this "fear" unconsciously to prevent yourself from 1) working on what your T wants you to or 2) push the T away from you so you don't have to trust T because they might die anyway?
IDK.
We are all dying...some of us just know it's sooner rather than later. Work on living as best you can for now. |
I can understand how those generic hypotheticals would come to mind since you don't know me, but they don't really fit. My T and I are doing excellent work and have addressed every serious topic imaginable, and then some. And I'm not pushing her away at all, that's why I'm conversing with her about this: I am close to her and would hate for something serious to happen and me not to find out. It's not a distraction from the work.
As far as the fear of her death being irrational.... I don't anticipate her dying imminently. However, she is in her late 60s and 3,000 miles away and has had a very serious prior illness. I recently had a longer than usual period where I didn't hear from her and became concerned. I would just like to know what, if anything, can be done so that I'll be in the loop if something serious occurs that would end my therapy unexpectedly, and of course, I care about her and would like to know if she ever had a life-threatening emergency arise.