I struggle with this question a lot. I believe there are certain things going on around me like the NSA is trying to recruit me for a mission, but people tell me its not true and i want to believe that it is in fact not true, but deep down in my heart they are coming for me. It doesn't help that two NSA agents follow me around everywhere and that they have eyes watching me 24/7. I know this sounds crazy but i believe it to be true. So I have lost the ability to tell my delusions from from just crazy thinking and paranoia. One day all of this will be clear for all of us.