I really want you to be safe supanova. We all do. No one here can force you to make the safe decision for yourself but we all hope you do. Hospital is not a failure even though so many of us view it as such. A breakup is not a small thing. You are important and your feelings do matter. I know you had a bad hospital experience last time but they can still keep you safe until this passes.

I hope we hear from you soon. Please be well. Stay here on earth with us. No one wants you dead rather than alive even though your brain is telling you the opposite right now.

I hope you find peace.