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NoddaProbBob · Jun 22, 2014, 06:58 PM

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Originally Posted by waggiedog

Hello dear noddaProbBob. Yes, sticking my neck out I'd say you are either on the verge of, or you already have an eating disorder. OK, I'm not a Dr or health care professional but I've suffered ED's for 33 years and I still do. I've had every kind known to man (or women!). I'd hate to think you mess up your life like I have just 'cos of an ED, because that's exactly what they can do ~ oh and apart from that, death is always a problem in ED's. I'm wondering, could you change your therapist? Are you on any meds? Some Psych meds can make you gain weight!!! Yeah, sad but true!! Oh and lastly...............yes, you certainly CAN be ''normal'' weight or overweight WITH an ED so don't be mislead about that!!! I send you big gentle HUGS. HUGS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you for your kind words. I was on a different med last year and gained a lot of weight with it. I had to move back in with my parents which didn't help. On top of that, I lost my T due to office budget cuts. She was the only person I felt like I ever truly had. All of these things combined spiked my weight. I finally lost a lot of it. Then my weight went back up by about 5 pounds and I lost it. I started dieting again and now this is where I am.
I could always ask my office for another T but I don't want to transition again. I like who I am seeing but sometimes I don't think she likes me. I have a really hard time talking to her but I think it's more me than anything. After losing my last T I just think I'm afraid to let her in. And I cry all the time now so if I were to start talking about everything I feel like the flood gates will open and never stop.
I just feel so messed up.