As I struggle to comprehend this disease and my treatment, I wanted to offer something positive to the members here on this forum, especially those who work in this field.

I'm due at my therapist tomorrow. Even though I usually have anxiety trying to decide just what to discuss with him, my mood usually lifts because everyone here as well as what I read is convincing me more every day that my therapist is truly trying to help me and for that I am grateful. Dang, I get emotional just writing that.

Even though I always thought I did a good job of hiding it through the years, it's really nice to know that everyone is truly trying to help me instead of out to get me. It's also nice to know that it's not good or normal to go around with a lot of dark anger trapped back deep inside the subconscious mind.

Having said that, who knows what tomorrow brings, or how I may be in 5 minutes from now.