I wouldn’t be offended teacake. My chances of agreeing are a bit iffy but I don’t mind a difference of opinion.

Unfortunately the only way to get out of being an adult is to pretend for awhile. I used to like amusement parks but I’m more for river tubing these days. Or anything else that lets me leave my responsibilities behind for a few hours. Of course it only works when I'm with people capable of handling themselves as well.

My trauma slammed into me right of high school too but I wasn’t in college. It was also when i started questioning my Lord. The first time I went to seek help, I went to a Chaplain and he started shuffling his papers; It shattered my spirituality. I doubt he recalls me but he made a choice that day and I hope he had regret.

I don’t consider myself an atheist because I believe in my Lord. I know where to place my blame and I don’t blame Him but I know I can’t be received with hatred in my heart.

It isn’t too late to take classes in college. I’ve taken a few but I'm not focused on anything particular. It could help you with being lonely. In any case, I am here if you’d like to talk and I might even be able to figure out the aut0-jibberish.