I really wish I could stop the negative self talk, but I feel like I have to do it. If I don't do it, other people will. I don't want to leave myself vulnerable to people who think it's okay to treat me badly if I make a mistake. For most other people it's different, but for me, the only way to stop them from hurting me is if I don't do anything to deserve it.

Maybe someday I will be able to afford to think positively about myself, but that doesn't seem to happen anytime soon.