I know you say you'll tell her once you're done losing weight, but honestly if you continue the eating patterns you have now (especially if you don't tell your t) you'll never be done. Eating disorders are addictive and the longer the behaviors have been happening, the harder it is to stop them. I dont know about you, but I used to tell myself that I would only restrict til I reached a certain weight. Then when I reached that weight I would make a new goal... so it's never a safe way to lose weight. As someone recovering from an eating disorder I beg you to please tell your t so she can help you figure things out!